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Creative Expression – Guilty For What You Do And What You Don’t Doby riversofeden1 |
Well
that’s the question folks. Do you ever do things out of guilt and then
you feel awful, compromised, like crap? When I do something because I
feel guilty – wanting to be accepted, promoted, or some such thing, I
get pulled into a whirlpool of mixed emotions. I chastise myself for
trying to produce results rather than letting things play out in time
and letting things happen in due course. I take the reins and do it. Of
course, it (the desire I am hoping to achieve) may initially work out
BUT trust me, it will backfire eventually. Guilt should never be the
driving force in any relationship or situation. Never. Never.
For
me, doing things out of guilt for people was a biggie. It was never
about them, but it is about me. Why did I do that? Well, to be quite
honest, because I did not trust the Lord to do for me what I could not
do, so I decided to work it up and do it myself. Then I felt guilty for
doing things out of guilt because I know it won’t produce the desire
that I wanted it to produce. There is an answer to it all. Glance over
yesterday’s blog, okay?
Guilt
is like going round and round in a whirlpool. Just wanted to repeat
that for myself to let it settle in me. I feel guilty for what I don’t
do and guilty for what I do. It’s a never-ending battle that actually is
a by-product of a wounded heart. Somehow guilt has made me feel that I
lack something. It makes me feel like I am not enough and I have to buy
my way into situations or peoples’ lives. Have you ever been there? Oh
by the way, buying your way in is not with money or it could be. It
could be through control, manipulation or even promises to enhance
relationships or situations. For instance, I can buy presents flattering
people so that they feel wanted and do more. I can take people places
that they would not be able to afford themselves because I have the
money and they don’t. There are numerous ways to move in guilt.
I
have decided to take a new approach. It’s called trust. Trusting God to
make a way for me. Not cliché. Not some easy fix. It is reality. The
overriding flow of guilt in my life flowed through my decisions. Guilt
was behind many decisions I have made in times past. Suddenly, I see. Do
you? Guilt robs you of an inner sense of calm, peace, and an awareness
that you are enough whether things work out as you expected them to work
out or not.
Here’s
a great one by Paul Ellis – The Cure for Guilt. Read it when you have
time. It helped me see some things. We really need each other in the
Body of Christ. Sometimes I am feeling things deep inside of me that I
can’t express. I try, but the words don’t seem to come out quite right
and hit the nail on the head with precision. So, I read an article that
nails it for me and I say “Yep, that’s it. I get it.’
Insecurity
in me on a massive scale drove me to DO for people to keep them close.
It also drove me to control the environment to a certain degree. This
was not done because I am an evil, angry ogre. No, I was just plain
insecure with deep rejection issues. It was done because I simply did
not believe, in the depths of my being, that I was enough for God. This
driving reality in me kept giving me a subliminal message that sounded
like this:
“You
are not enough. Try harder. Buy them off with kindness. Fill their
need. Take them places. Buy them things. You know, make it hard for them
to go. You are second-rate, second choice. If you don’t do this, ah ah
ah…………….you are not enough to keep this going.”
Yikes,
that is pitiful but we do it. I have done it. Perhaps you have done it.
Why do we do it? I don’t feel that Christ in me is enough to lead the
way, get the job done, fulfill His promises, etc. But times they are a
changing for me. I say “for me” because this is my internal reality. I
am not blaming anyone for it at all. I can trace back these ‘guilt
roots’ to my Polish upbringing. Guilt in a Polish family is served up on
a fine platter, able to be digested at every meal. No lie. That is
truly how it was. I love love love my parents (now deceased) but
breaking this ‘thing’ is essential in my life.
I
am writing this off the cuff to help each of you avoid making these
same mistakes. I have not arrived but this whole thing about guilt is
being exposed in the light of the finished work of the cross. And, it
feels so good.
Let
us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith,
having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and
having our bodies washed with pure water. (Hebrews 10:22)
I
draw near to God, who through His Son has freed me from guilt and
condemnation. The lack that I have inside myself, those places of lack
that are like giant voids in my being, are there because I don’t believe
or refuse to accept the fact that Christ is full in me. I am enough in
Him. He is all in me. It is tempting to work up our lives to compensate
for the fact that things are not happening or life is not going the way
it should be but that is not the way to go. Not at all.
His
life flows through me, always revealing to me His perfection, flowing
through my desert places, those places of deep voids and depths of
woundedness that still exist for all of us, no matter how old we get in
life.
The
anecdote for guilt for me - STOP – stop trying to make it work. Stop
trying to make people want to do things. Stop trying and rest, be still,
and listen. It works for me and establishes me on a strong foundation
of peace. Now, that is not saying that it won’t rise up again and I will
be tempted to buy someone out in some way through guilt. It may happen.
The answer is to focus on the reality of the finished work of the
cross, realizing that He has done it all for us. Guilt and condemnation
has been nailed to the cross and we are free. There is NO condemnation
(or guilt) for those who are IN Christ Jesus. That’s me. And you.
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